something to look forward to

“Sakura..?”

She stopped in her tracks and turned hesitantly to face him.

“I need to be alone.” She said the words slowly, but her tone stood firm.

“I’ll come with you.” He said automically. He arched his eyebrows in an attempt to seduce her.

She watched him steadily. Her stubborn will wouldn’t leave. She moved towards him and gently cupped the side of his face with her soft palm.

“Don’t worry. I’ll just be by the lake,” she smiled as he held him. He made to move his hand, “You forget I’m a ninja too! I’ll be okay.”

And she moved away. She pulled her hand off him before he could even press his own to its softness. She turned, took one brief glance of him and just walked away.

He still had his open hand near his face, ready to reach out. But just like always, she never let him get too close to even touch her. Sometimes he wondered if she was holding him or if she was just making sure he was real, that he was really there.

broken strings naruxsaku

***

five years ago, he was just a boy drowning in hate. His family left him. Back then, he despised anyone who had the slightest interest in him because he knew that he would somehow weaken, expose his humanity by getting closer to them. And that was why he ran. Because he was already hurting when his team mates were in pain.

Had he known that he would turn out to be the person he is now, he would’ve grabbed the opportunity and responded to the girl who loved him. He knew he always had her.

But now, she had him too.

i’ve lost too much of the things that matter by lingering in my pain.

he rushed to the waves and the cold wind that powered behind it. his body disappeared as the warm water engulfed his being. he swam out to the deepest parts and plunged in deep, holding his breath.

Let the waters claim his fires. let them consume the heat of the flames and leave him mellow. let the embers remain. slowly, he rose to the surface and he breathed out life.

i’m coming back for you.

you make it real sasuxsaku

***

“I give up sensei. I gave my all. I admit defeat.”
“Wha? you’re not making sense Naruto.”
“I broke up with Sakura.”
“You’ve never given up on anything, why give up now when the girl you’ve been trying to impress is already with you?”
“I’m tired of trying to reach out when she’s always running off. I’m giving her up–to you.”
“Well, you sound like you’re passing on some sort of hand-me-down possession here when we’re actually talking about a person, a girl you happen to love, i might add.”
“Sasuke was right you know. She should be with you.”
“Sasuke?”
“Before he left, we talked a little.”
“Why didn’t you tell me? It would’ve helped in determining his wherabouts.”
“It was kind of–personal. Like it was our own secret.”
“Secret eh? But you told me.”
“Ha ha. Well he’s gone and it’s been five long years anyway. And besides that girl looks like she’s never going to open up to me because it’s either she’s still hung over Sasuke or she doesn’t want to hurt me by admitting the fact that she’s in love with you.”

“so you and naruto broke up.”
“hmm. He still lives to his name. the loudmouth.”
“hey,don’t say that. he’s a student of mine you know.”
“i’m your student too! and i didn’t know you care that much sensei.”
“i do have feelings just like you.”
“and i thought all you cared about was Icha Icha Paradise.”
“oi, stop that. you’re wounding my ego. you know i care about you.” he turned sincere and vulnerable for a moment before he added, “you’re my family.”

he patted sakura’s hair with a smile. with an irritated sigh, Sakura followed Kakashi walk towards Naruto’s area.

“Where are you going?”
“It’s time we rest. It’s going to rain soon.”
“So what else did he tell you? did he say why he broke up with me?”
“Oh, he got tired that’s all. But you already know that. You’re the one who likes being chased.”
“He said that? Or is that your own opinion?”
“It’s how I see the situation.”
“Sensei, why do you judge me like that? you know me–”
“That’s what pain has turned you into Sakura. And because you let it control you, you’ve closed up and pushed Naruto away. Get over it.”
“it?”
“Whatever wound you’re still licking.”
“you’re one to talk.”
she walked ahead of him in a fury and stopped short as she saw naruto lying on his back in the middle of the forest ground.

“look at him. out cold huh.” Kakashi had tried to lighten the mood but failed. He bent over Naruto, slapped him gently on the cheek and seeing that the boy stayed the same, he tossed him over his shoulder and carried him going home.

“you go on ahead. i think i’ll–”

“Sakura, let the rain fall. You’ve waited long enough.”

please don’t stop the rain kakaxsaku

***

i’m scared.

because somehow, i’ve let someone take hold of me.
because somehow, she gave me that same power too.

try, nelly furtado
you give me something sakuxkaka

***

i hope i get to finish this soon.